Tragedy

My poor little Trinity... My neice just can't win. It's the end of the softball season, we are doing awesome in the yearend tournament and we only have two games left. TJ breaks her thumb last night at the game. Broken thumb = 3.5 hours at Nanaimo General Hospital. She's out for the last two games of the year. However sad she might be she took it like a real pro. She is sad she is missing out but she was ok about it happening. "Its ball, it happens." You'd never know the little twelve year old monkey would think that way. She makes me so proud. Even though she is sad to miss the last two games she was still chuckling last night at 2:00 am when I took her home. I am proud of her attitude about it all. Tragic that we were doing so well, star pitcher out for the last game that matters. But we still beat that team last night which is the one we really wanted to beat. Good luck to my team the Silverbullets on your last two games.

A Poet's Life

A pen in my hand and I am comfortable.
Stress seems to melt away
allowing me to decompress what hides in the corners of my mind.
Muse, so much prompts me to lay word to paper these days.
Life is up in the air,
and it seems like things are being pushed farther then I want to actually take them.
Problems seem to fade away with written words.
Emotions are symbols in my life that allow me to be creative,
to be where I am truely happy.
Words lay the ground work
where I am not afraid to be who I really am.
Where everyday issues get shoved aside and make room for masterpieces.
It's a poets soul,
that stuggles within me,
wanting to be free of the everyday mundane
to be allowed to soar.

Sleepless in Nanaimo

Here I go again. It's almost 1:00am and I still can't sleep. I have tried it all. A shower, warm milk, reading, watching TV and now writting. I can't fall asleep. Trust me I have tried. Things in my life are up in their air right now. An impending move (NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO THAT ONE) , issues in the love life, getting older and not being where I thought I'd be. I guess my brain is on overload. As hard as I have been trying I keep thinking .... My brain doesnt seem to want to turn off and relax. Thats the tough part. Relaxation I wish it came in a bottle that you could drink like an Redbull or a blended coffee drink from Starbucks. The guy/ girl that could bottle that one would be a millionaire. With lack of sleep my brain seems to wander and I tend to think more then ever. All I can say is I need a great pen pal with the sames hours I seem to be keeping and I'd be all set. Well world try and get some sleep I'll be thinking of you well you rest your werie eyes. Remember me and pray that I do fall asleep sometime soon.

Softball Season !

So this year corrina and I decided to take on two little league teams. Logan's age group 15-17 bantam boys and Trinity's age group 10-12 year old Squirt girls. How we usually love the game and the kids. This year I still love the game and most of the kids but some of their parents.... let's just say it this way... "No your kid is not the next Ken Griffie Jr or babe ruth so get over it!" Some people need to take a look at the way they treat other people and their own kids for that matter before passing any judgement on someone else. If you don't like the way we coach; get over it. You should have coached your own all star kids team if you wanted the responsibility. Hey and maybe just once we'd like to see your kid at a practice; then we wouldnt have to play them in the outfield the whole game or bench them more then once. It's not really fair to the other kids on the team.... OH YA THIS IS A TEAM SPORT! Maybe you'd like to come just so the other kids might learn something else for a change. Its hard to have a practice when your not all there. I know I am venting can't help it. I am tired of the crappy parents taking out their inability to bring there kid to something and trying to blame someone else for why their kid isnt learning the game. Welcome to the real world when you make a commitment to something your actually suppose to come to it.

Excuses from parents and kids this year:

1) Didnt bring my daughter because I was to tired to drive her. (no call to tell us she wasnt coming)
2) My daughter has to babysit (Its a ball night not like we havent had games the same two nights since april) and its only a practice (Oh ya if I remember her kids came to 3 practices the whole year so far)
3) I am not bringing my daughter she is at my house not her mom's this weekend and I dont want to drive her to the practice. (thats ok because she doesnt come when she's at her mom's either)
4) Did feel like coming today
5) Got food posioning (even tho he told another parent he didnt feel like coming)
6) showed up at the wrong field for practise (oh ya like they havent been at the same field since april)
7) Got stuck out at the mall, forgot it was a monday and we even had a game
8) Have a birthday party and I am tired so I didnt want to come (oh ya I worked all weekend 15 hour shifts and I am still there)
9) Slept through my alarm "why didnt you guys call me to wake me up" (not my responsibility to look after you. Your 17 should know how to wake up when your suppose to be up)
10) I'm sick. (oh ya for like 5 weeks straight)
11) My grandmothers bestfriends retirement party and I'm invited (she is 11) (wondering why she hasnt been to more then 3 practices all year mmm I am thinking she just doensnt want to really come)
12) I'm going to a movie with my friends
13) Want to hang out with my grandparents we are going for dinner (but watched the hockey playoff games instead)
14) I thought you said it was 6:00 pm and not 4:00pm (mmmm been the same time all year)
15) Went camping and didnt get home in time (Legit)
16) Was at a sleep over and didnt have any sleep so I didnt want to come
17) dance rehearsal for recietal (Legit)
18) Wasnt in town
19) Mom said I didnt have to come because she doesnt like your coaching (absolutly serious)
20) Don't want to play ball anymore so I'll just come to the games but not the practices

I am pretty sure that there are more that I can't remember. How hard is it to pick up the phone and call us if your not coming to a practice or a game already. We are all about the fun and learning not so much about the winning. Our girls have a 14-5-1 average,our boys well we've lost more then we've won. I wonder if it might be the lack of showing up for practices that have effected this outcome. I would say yes! How are we suppose to have any fun when you arent having any fun? Its suppose to be fun. Even some of our kids are beginning to ask why the others arent there. Seriously, why join a team sport and not bother to be there to participate!

New Day New Blog!

So today I really learnt how nice my friends are. Not just corrina, Mike and the kids....but one I met through Paul. I am writting this blog on my new lap top!! All I can do is say thank you to Harv he helped me out today too. I love this laptop because now I can write on the fly!!!! Travelling around the island with my new laptop is making me smile. I thank you friends who make me smile and help me out when I need it! I want to thank Dennis too for letting me use his table and internet all day to get me up and running I love it. Today I am blessed as well! I noticed that I do have people reading this now. Thanks to Meeshaw for posting the link to my babbling! You all make my world go around!

My Family keeps growing!

No I am not pregnant! I have been really lucky to meet some very interesting people on my journey through my 34 years. My own parents are the best. I wouldnt change who they are no matter what anyone thinks. My mom has always been my rock, one of my bestfriends. I can tell her anything. She knows me so well. My dad, sometimes judegmental; I love him so much for who he is. He is tough and I love him very much. What I have learned about sticking for your family I learnt from both my parents. My dad's youngest sister moved in with us when she was pretty young. She has been more like my sister then my aunt. So adopting other families into my own started early on in life. I adopted one family after another. I meet the Turner's in Courtenay when I was 13. Spent alot of time with their family being treated as one of them. A blessing they were through my whole teenage years and well into my adult life. Bruce and Carol are two of my favorite "Adults" , I hope I can pass on just one amount of love that they give everyone. I Meet the Rae's In courtenay as well. They are like my second family. They have always treated me as one of their kids. Yes they even grounded me a few times. Bert and Betty have been saviors to me growing up. The older I get the more I seem to find. Adding some great people into my growing "Family." I adopted the Greens as an adult. Bob and Genie are great I learn each day how to smile from them. I have already discussed Corrina, Mike and the kids. They are so special to me and I am blessed to have them in my life. Tonight on a drive to rescue corrina's uncle in crofton we talked about how I have kids even though they arn't biologically mine. Corrina's Kids are great. Logan's Friends have even adopted me now; so now I have more kids then one person is blessed to know. Thane is like having a grown up son, my ginger kid! And tonight I have added Miranda. She is a really sweet kid. It's like having Teenage kids. I didnt give birth too. :-) She refered to Corrina, Mike and I as really cool Adults. Which I find so sweet. I like to know that if they have a problem that they have someone they can talk to if they can't talk to their own parents. The goal I have had my whole life is to make a difference to someone. I finally feel I have. Even though they arnt really mine; They are. :-)!